24 x 3

Si 24 x 3 = la formula de felicidad, entonces que puedo decir...

RMango fuiste testigo de los hechos, no por que seas mudo y no puedas decir lo que viste, pero estoy seguro de que experimentaste lo mismo que Yo, no puedes negar de que es mas que lo que esperaba, ademas escuchaste las mismas palabras que Yo.

RMango vamos, se que no estoy mal, tu estas de mi lado y ademas se que tambien te agrado estar lejos de mi por unos dias, acuerdate.

No pierdas las esperanzas, recuerda bien eso.

Mas huellas...

Dependiente

At times I feel like it is not alright, so many things all at once hit me and I get unbalanced so fast, to be honest it irritates me, a lot !

it is not the fact that i do not want to help others, but at times, I just can not do it, saying no it is been a very difficult thing to say, it builds pressure and eventually converts into stress, then my head hurts, I get sick, I get lost and my mind is every where but not where it is supposed to and I can not concentrate.

It is just so many things and it does not stop, I so swear that i am not dependent but many people I know they are, they rely on me to finish what they can not accomplish or just do what they do not want to, the worst part of this is that my closest friends get my frustration, I am sorry Honey if you are read this, sometimes a wine on the side helps to relieve stress but I swear it is not working.

Aaargh, please issues get out of my head, ha!

Corta Conversacion

Te sigo a donde quieras pero no te vayas a Seattle !

Que quieres decirme?

(Mirandome a los ojos, tomandome de las manos y triste al mismo tiempo) Sabes lo que quiero decir.

Mucho que pensar...


Footsteps

Raised to become ignorant

Having a really close conversation with a close friend of mine, talking about how family and friends play an important role in your life, then realizing years later when you grow up that every thing you have learned through them, it is not the way it goes and how things really are.

Then that is when You realize that You were raised to become ignorant until You decide to open Your eyes and see for yourself how it is out there where You call it life.

Every time I see a touching movie, it makes me travel to that place and that situation turns to become mine, all the baggage that I have been carrying becomes heavier, knowing that sadly, my family will never wake up from that phase that was imposed to them by generations of ignorant people.

I am not expecting any thing at all, but what ever they can do from their end it is a start, I am not saying that i will turn my back on them upon my life style and decisions, after all that has happened, from the day I started carrying this weight, I know that it blocks many many things in my life, part of it is my happiness.

Although i do everything i can to be happy, to enjoy life as i could, to do what I want, it is still hard that I have to keep shut happy memories spent with my friends, last night made me realize that You can not change the world, but You can change for the world, seeing my footsteps behind since I started until now, I have traveled a lot.

I have inputted many great resources of information in my head and i have opened my eyes to start seeing that all that You thought was wrong, it is not how it really is. (5-13-09)

Cycles

Everything in life comes with cycles...

• Every year earth revolves around the sun in 365 days.
• Every year seasons change every 3 months.
• Every day the sun rises and sets.
• Every day times goes by every 24 hours.
• Every day tides go from high to low twice per day.
• Every other time, the prettiest flowers bloom every other than.

Every time we realize we need to move on, to continue with our life, to fight for what we want to, making strong decisions that mark our future, sometimes we make mistakes, some times they hurt us, some times they makes us very happy, some times we meet our goals and needs, sometimes they makes us grow as a person, some times we just do not know, all this occur in a cycle wich depends on un to decide when to end, when to move on.

If you ever felt ticklish inside any other times, or just simply excited thinking about it, then you are meeting your goals as a human being, you are not a rock, you are important and definitively you have experienced love.

Do always what is best for You, do what makes You happy, do not limit yourself and please do not regret anything You do...

The experience is totally worthed !

RMango

Que no se le olvide decirte a diario, que te quiero mucho, que te hecho de menos y por favor que te de todos los besos que te mande en su equipaje, que sea un buen Chango, que haga que pases un buen tiempo y una feliz estancia, a lo mejor esta nervioso, pues nunca ha volado.

No se te olvide pedirle muchos abrazos, se que te gusta mucho...

Que no te despierte temprano, tiene la costumbre de levantarse por el ruido de los aviones y que se porte muy bien, ojala no me deje quedar en mal, juro que tiene buenos modales, pero a veces se aloca.

Se que te hara muy buena compania y te hara reir a veces, no lo dejes que coma mucho, pues quiero que regrese igualito que como se fue, divierte mucho y pasatela a todo dar, estare esperando tu regreso!

Triste

No pude contestar tu mensaje de texto ayer por la noche, pues me quede dormido...

Sere honesto contigo, me siento dolido, por que tuviste una semana larga de descanso y solo un par de horas para mirarme, eso me indica que tienes muchas cosas importantes que hacer, a lo mejor y probablemente te este robando de tu tiempo, lo siento mucho.

El dia que nos quedamos de ver, cosas pasaron y estuviste en el lugar diferente a la hora diferente, en verdad me siento triste y en verdad lo demuestro.

Al recibir tus mensajes de texto hoy, me di cuenta que tienes cosas mas importantes en tu vida, solo quiero decirte que cuando digo que eres importante para mi, en verdad lo digo en serio, creo que mirando en tus ojos puedo ver a la persona mas hermosa del mundo, pero a veces no miro mi reflejo en ellos.

No me agrada escribir cosas como estas, me duele mucho, y en el tope de todo esto, Si, todavia te quiero mucho, pero si no te digo como me siento, nunca vas a saber, Si, sigues siendo importante para mi, Si, te hecho de menos, si, estoy triste.