Raised to become ignorant

Having a really close conversation with a close friend of mine, talking about how family and friends play an important role in your life, then realizing years later when you grow up that every thing you have learned through them, it is not the way it goes and how things really are.

Then that is when You realize that You were raised to become ignorant until You decide to open Your eyes and see for yourself how it is out there where You call it life.

Every time I see a touching movie, it makes me travel to that place and that situation turns to become mine, all the baggage that I have been carrying becomes heavier, knowing that sadly, my family will never wake up from that phase that was imposed to them by generations of ignorant people.

I am not expecting any thing at all, but what ever they can do from their end it is a start, I am not saying that i will turn my back on them upon my life style and decisions, after all that has happened, from the day I started carrying this weight, I know that it blocks many many things in my life, part of it is my happiness.

Although i do everything i can to be happy, to enjoy life as i could, to do what I want, it is still hard that I have to keep shut happy memories spent with my friends, last night made me realize that You can not change the world, but You can change for the world, seeing my footsteps behind since I started until now, I have traveled a lot.

I have inputted many great resources of information in my head and i have opened my eyes to start seeing that all that You thought was wrong, it is not how it really is. (5-13-09)